OMG how can a person have so much hate in their hearts? I never was this way before, before her murder. I see a commercial now for Easter and first words out of my mouth is, I FUCKING HATE EASTER... We loved Easter well all the holidays really, but Easter was a big one for us. Would hide the freshly died eggs that morning let the kids go and hunt them, then Charli would go and hide them over and over for little brother and sister all day. She never got tired of it. How do you get over these feelings? HOW??????? She could hunt eggs knowing where she hide them and let the other two find every one of them. It didn't matter to her she was having fun and enjoying the day with family. Family is all that mattered to her.
My kids were my whole world, I cherished every part of their life. After I lost Kera' I knew that the other 3 had to be my first priority no matter what..... Then the worst thing that could happen to my family happened again, but this time it was murder that took my child.. Not sickness, SIDS, cancer, it was a ruthless MURDER. She never hurt any one, loved everything and everyone....
You took my child for no reason, cause your a worthless piece of chit that couldn't stop raping kids and drinking, drugging while you drove. I know for a fact that you wasn't actually driving that night. That you are covering up for your girlfriend. BUT you are still responsible for her death just the same.. You have made a happy family miserable were we can't even enjoy the little things anymore. Every turn we are reminded of what we lost and what was taken away from us. A loving strong willed teen that was overly joyous, happy to just be alive........ You took that from her and us.
I just don't understand how this happened to us. Living in a small town,this is not suppose to happen here. Not a major crime like this, small towns are safe that's why we moved there. So my kids could grow up and be in a safe place.... Is any place safe any more? More feelings of disgust,loss,sadness, heartache,hate,desperation. I didn't even know most of these feels ever existed not in my world they didn't until you murdered my child.I HATE YOU for taking my child and making me have these feeling now. I have learned to hate every thing that is good. Every thing that I ever loved in this world. YOU TOOK MY WORLD FROM ME..................I FUCKING HATE YOU..........
