Hate

OMG how can a person have so much hate in their hearts? I never was this way before, before her murder. I see a commercial now for Easter and first words out of my mouth is, I FUCKING HATE EASTER... We loved Easter well all the holidays really, but Easter was a big one for us. Would hide the freshly died eggs that morning let the kids go and hunt them, then Charli would go and hide them over and over for little brother and sister all day. She never got tired of it. How do you get over these feelings?      HOW??????? She could hunt eggs knowing where she hide them and let the other two find every one of them. It didn't matter to her she was having fun and enjoying the day with family. Family is all that mattered to her.

 My kids were my whole world, I cherished every part of their life. After I lost Kera' I knew that the other 3 had to be my first priority no matter what..... Then the worst thing that could happen to my family happened again, but this time it was murder that took my child.. Not sickness, SIDS, cancer, it was a ruthless MURDER.                                                                                                                    She never hurt any one, loved everything and everyone....

You took my child for no reason, cause your a worthless piece of chit that couldn't stop raping kids and drinking, drugging while you drove. I know for a fact that you wasn't actually driving that night. That you are covering up for your girlfriend. BUT you are still responsible for her death just the same.. You have made a happy family miserable were we can't even enjoy the little things anymore. Every turn we are reminded of what we lost and what was taken away from us. A loving strong willed teen that was overly joyous, happy to just be alive........ You took that from her and us.

I just don't understand how this happened to us. Living in a small town,this is not suppose to happen here. Not a major crime like this, small towns are safe that's why we moved there. So my kids could grow up and be in a safe place.... Is any place safe any more? More feelings of disgust,loss,sadness, heartache,hate,desperation. I didn't even know most of these feels ever existed not in my world they didn't until you murdered my child.I HATE YOU for taking my child and making me have these feeling now. I have learned to hate every thing that is good. Every thing that I ever loved in this world. YOU TOOK MY WORLD FROM ME..................I FUCKING HATE YOU..........

Lost with out you

Hey Charli,
 I have been so freaking lost with out you in the last three months. All I do is cry and think how bad I need you here. How much better our world could be with you here with us. I've some really STUPID thoughts these last three months, I know you wouldn't be proud of me for them. October has always been a hard month for me because that's when Kera died but some how you always got me through that month from how excited you would get about Halloween. Then November would get here and I loved how you made us all have such a wonderful Thanksgiving. How loving and giving you were. How your smile would light up the whole world for me......Then Black Friday would be there and how excited you got to start decorating for Christmas. To see you so happy and laughing while putting up all the decorations and wallpapering the whole living room with Christmas paper. How do you get in the Holiday spirit when you were the only one that made it wonderful????????

CharliGore.com

Charli,

    I haven't given up on your Justice, I will fight till my dying breathe. I have asked, begged,pleaded, swore on your grave to have Justice for you. I am not sure what else to do right now. So I setup a website just for you. I know you would be happy we did it but on the other hand I also know that you would be upset with me, because I did. You have never been the type of person to boost about yourself or your life. Now I am doing it for you. The only way I know how to get your story in so many hands is the site. I hope you can understand the struggle it is with you not here, you not being in eye sight. All we have is memories and pictures of your beauty. That is not what a mother or father should live with, just memories. Our children are to bury us, the parents. My hopes with your site is that some one out there can come forward and tell the truth about that night. I know that some one knows what happen to you. Some one seen what was done to you, HOW, can that person live with it this long? The last thing I ever wanted in life was this, but I know how you would fight so I promise you baby girl I will fight this battle for us both. I will not give up EVER!!!!!!! I love you...

Fly High Dragonfly............          The Crazy Lady

Oh my God, where did I go wrong in life. I have given my whole life to my kids, and now I am no wheres I just can't understand why I was giving this much pain in one life time. Losing two kids like I did while fighting for JUSTICE for my Charli, and making sure the county does their jobs. How much more can one person take..... It feels like my whole world has crashed down on me and I am trying to crawl my way to the top. While I climb more comes crashing down on me.. I can't breathe, can't move. I'm blinded by the dust and debris, WHY? I can't take it any more. I'm so freaking mad at my life but what can I do about it?  NOTHING I CAN DO NOTHING...... I must live in this hell, it has become my life. I struggle to simply to just breathe let alone live life..... I am just done with it all. I don't think I can stand any more... I'm sinking into a black hole and can't climb my way out of this.... My heart is ripped and torn into many shattered pieces, I am lost so lost........

My heart is gone.....

After three yrs now they are listening to me. Its a little late but maybe we can now have the proof that these people hurt you and killed you for now reason.....My world has been turned upside down, I feel like I have lost my mind and heart. Not knowing where to turn next, not understanding where to go from here. My life as I knew it is never going to be the same. I live life now with my heart shattered, no feeling at all. I HATE the new world I live in.........I will never understand how this happened to you......Its a world I never thought I would live in. A world no parent should go through.....

Justice looks like it will never be here for you...

As three years approach since your murder, still we hadn't seen one ounce of justice for you.
It seams like no one even cares if you get your justice, I can't understand how people don't care any more.
To me it's like some young adults get all the news media and you never, It hurts so bad. I long to hold you in my arms again and I never will. I'll never see your smile, your face light up, see your children, never get to see you married to the man of your dreams. All I ever wanted in life was to be the best mother to you and your siblings. I feel like I failed you some how. I didn't protect you enough, I didn't hold on tight enough to keep you safe from this horrible world. That was my only job as a mother and I failed so bad.
Where did I go wrong with you, why couldn't I do my job right? I have so my questions still, but don't know how to get them now.........
My love for you is still so strong, my heart is forever broken knowing that the justice I seek for you may never come. I sit and look at photos of you  as you grew and how beautiful you had become in such a short time. The warmest heart, biggest smile and THE MOST unbelievable blue eyes ever.You will forever be in my heart and on my thoughts......

                                                                       I LOVE YOU, YOUR CRAZY LADY