My thoughts

Charli, I have made it a year now since your murder. I hear people say that time will heal all wounds, but I don't see that right now. It is still hard today as it was that morning. I try to be so strong but there are days I don't think I can carry on with all of it. I face the killers from time to time and wonder what they are thinking? I haven't been able to see past the pain in a very long time. I know you wouldn't want for us to hurt this much, but that's all we do right now. I can't get past they way they took you, the way you was just left in the ditch to die. As no one cared for you. I've tried too see how they could just run and leave the scene. I know that the persons involved had no remorse and that they didn't care what they did, but I am not like that I can't believe that some one with children could do that to a child. To any one's child. I struggle with this every day. I haven't gotten all the answers and probably never will. I just hope that one day I can get the closer that I so need. I haven't been able to hear your voice in a year and I don't want to forget it. I think that is the hardest thing right now for me. I see your pictures all the time and I will never forget your face, but your voice is slipping away from me and it's killing me. I need to hold your hand again and I never will be able to...... These people took away my best friend. I will never get to talk to you about any thing. I haven't been able to see through all the pain. I am just lost Charli......... I don't understand how you could be gone so soon... All I ever wanted to be was your mother. To hold you and give you the world. Now I don't know what to do. I AM SO LOST..... I know you will never read any of this, but I just need to get it out. I need you here with me and your not. Because some one took your life away and don't even care how much it hurts your family!!!!!!! All I have is the memories we had together and that's just not enough for me.....