I went by you grave today, to make sure every thing was right with it and to see your picture finally on there.

I haven't been there in over a month now. It gets harder every time I go out there because it's finally hitting me that you are really gone. I can't see you smiling face and I can't her your voice.. I sat there looking at the ground and trying to figure out how I could bring you back to me. I still don't know all of what happen that night and I may never find out the whole truth.. I just know I want you home with me and I can't bring you back... I can't get over the reason you was murdered.. I will never let that go, I know I am to forgive him but I will never forget... It haunts me every day the feelings I have and the hate for the persons that took you from me... I feel like I am losing every thing that ever mattered to me.... I feel like I am losing my mind every day, I can't help myself .... I am losing my faith that the law enforcement will get your case ready to even go to trial.. I love and miss you so much baby girl.. Keep looking down on your family we need you more every day...... Your Crazy Lady Aka MOM