My heart is gone.....

After three yrs now they are listening to me. Its a little late but maybe we can now have the proof that these people hurt you and killed you for now reason.....My world has been turned upside down, I feel like I have lost my mind and heart. Not knowing where to turn next, not understanding where to go from here. My life as I knew it is never going to be the same. I live life now with my heart shattered, no feeling at all. I HATE the new world I live in.........I will never understand how this happened to you......Its a world I never thought I would live in. A world no parent should go through.....