Oh my God, where did I go wrong in life. I have given my whole life to my kids, and now I am no wheres I just can't understand why I was giving this much pain in one life time. Losing two kids like I did while fighting for JUSTICE for my Charli, and making sure the county does their jobs. How much more can one person take..... It feels like my whole world has crashed down on me and I am trying to crawl my way to the top. While I climb more comes crashing down on me.. I can't breathe, can't move. I'm blinded by the dust and debris, WHY? I can't take it any more. I'm so freaking mad at my life but what can I do about it?  NOTHING I CAN DO NOTHING...... I must live in this hell, it has become my life. I struggle to simply to just breathe let alone live life..... I am just done with it all. I don't think I can stand any more... I'm sinking into a black hole and can't climb my way out of this.... My heart is ripped and torn into many shattered pieces, I am lost so lost........